bewildered

bewilder (according to m-w.com)

Main Entry: be·wil·der
Pronunciation: \bi-ˈwil-dər, bē-\
Function: transitive verb
Inflected Form(s): be·wil·dered; be·wil·der·ing \-d(ə-)riŋ\
Date: 1684

1 : to cause to lose one's bearings
2 : to perplex or confuse especially by a complexity, variety, or multitude of objects or considerations

sometimes i feel like i'm just spinning in circles. or is it just deja vu?

i am finding myself in nearly the same situation i was in 1.5 years ago, only my options don't seem quite as clear. usually, something crystallizes relatively rapidly out of the fog of decisions and practically demands my acquiescence.

i'm wondering if inspiration will smile upon me a third time and illuminate the path i should take, or if i am to continue careening around in the dark. the search for job/career, house, other half, the right gym, and graduate work continues.

anyone got a flashlight?